Because you all are special!

I must admit that I’m not a kind of person who can live without friends… there are always be two persons or at least one that I consider as best friend, special one(s) to lean on. And those special persons are they whom I trust so much, that sometime being told some certain secrets of my life.
That’s why, if someone asks me, what’s the most important thing to make me survive living my life, I’ll surely answer : friends. And I do realize, that being with them really helps me to improve myself. I learn a lot from those experiences we’ve been thru, and like it or not, I have to say; it’s them who ‘create’ me as I am now….
Every time I enter a new period of my life, I get these kinds of friends, but it doesn’t mean that I’ll forget the old ones from the past period, everyone of them is still special… and things that we’ve been thru stays in my mind…

And, I would like to dedicate this posting to all the special people that make me survive!

Friends: the one who dare to take a risk just to save you from your trouble
Waktu SD, I have two friends, and we’re just like three musketeers, together forever . udah ketemu tiap hari disekolah, duduk sebangku, tapi sore-sore masih aja suka main sepeda bareng, atau ada acara saling mengunjungi rumah untuk main….
At that time, I hate boys so much, I thought they were the most annoying creatures that had ever existed, … Gak heran, gue selalu bermasalah dengan mahluk yang bernama cowok ini which always end up with inter-gendered fights. Sampai suatu hari, ada guru yang ngeliat gue lagi brantem, dan posisi gue kepergok jelek banget, gue lagi nendang pantat si cowok ini (hihihi), guru itu narik gue (dan si cowok itu) ke kantor, tapi tiba-tiba, dua temen gue itu masuk ke kantor guru juga, dan bikin keributan. They pushed the teacher to release me, they said that I was innocent, and the teacher should punish the boy (I was fighting with)… They insisted to stay in the office and kept making noises, and ehm, akhirnya… si guru ngehukum kita berempat, si cowok, dan us-the three musketeers… bersihin WC sekolah! Hayya! Mira, Yoppy.. thanks for being my friend *bow*

Friend: the one who want to do anything just to make you happy.
I think I got karma because of hating boys so much, coz when I was in Junior High, I started to, ehm. Got crushed and having a boyfriend tapi nyokap gue gak suka, jadinya gue dan cinta monyetku itu backstreet… And, who covered my crime to my mum? My friend off course! She lied to my mum all the time until one day.. BUSTED! Temennya nyokap ngeliat gue lagi berdua dengan si cowok ini, dan dasar ibu-ibu, dia ngadu ke nyokap gue…. Yah, nyokap gue sebel banget sama temen gue yang ngebantu gue buat boong ke dia… tapi temen gue lightly said :” hey, bodo amat deh, gue mau disebelin ‘ma nyokap lo… niat gue baik kok… pengen bikin lo hepi!”.Yoppy, thanks for being the one who covered my crime *bow*

Friend : The one who supports you when you’re down.
When I was in senior high…I became a minority… and it sucks! Everybody starred at me as if I was an alien, tapi gue punya satu temen, yang gak peduli mau gue batak, jawa, cina and other race things…. Salah satu hal yang paling gak bisa gue lupain adalah ketika gue down berat, gak betah being minority, dan berencana untuk pindah sekolah… , I cried on her shoulders, and she said,” you have to stay! You can’t walk away just like that, you’re not a looser, I know it! You’re a fighter.. so fight! I’m right beside you.. I’ll help you fight!” and she did…. I graduated from that school with my head up!Fei, Xie xie for supporting me*bow*

Friends : the ones who can influence you to change a lot, so you better watch out, and pick who’s becoming your friend!
In early year of university, I got friends to skip the class together and went away, dan ngelakuin hal-hal yang klo sekarang gue pikir-pikir lagi : useless…. I really wasted my time… IP gue pas TPB juga ancur abis…. Gak heran, nyokap gue benci banget ‘ma temen-temen yang mengelilingi gue pas jaman awal-awal kuliah. But, what I did… gue ngebelain temen-temen gue mati-matian… dan ngejadiin nyokap sebagai musuh gue…. Gak tau kenapa, tapi saat itu, gue bener-bener ngerasa, gak ada yang ngertiin gue kecuali temen-temen gue itu… sampe suatu saat, gue kepentok satu masalah, yang bikin gue shock, dan kapok punya temen… sempet beberapa waktu gue milih untuk jadi loner…
Dan saat gue mulai ‘buka diri’ untuk temenan, gue jadi lebih picky… dan temen yang gue ‘pilih’ ini, orangnya sangat terorganized, penuh plan dan selalu gerak cepat… dia yang bikin gue cepet lulus (malah duluan gue lulus dari dia!hehe) Anyway, gue gak nyalahin tmen-tmen gue dulu, it’s my own stupidity, anyway!Detty, hatur nuhun, det.. atas gerak cepatnya, sampe gue kebawa cepet… *bow*

Friends : the one who respects your opinion, decision, or whatsoever that relates to your thoughts.
This is about me and mirma… we both really have A LOT of differences. Sebenernya sampe sekarang gue masih suka bingung, knapa gue bisa deket dengan begitu banyaknya perbedaan-perbedaan antara gue dan dia…, like she loves to make simple things complicated, while I always simplify complicated things (hehe), she's dependent while I love to do things myself, she’s easy to trust (and even got crushed) on new people, while I never trust others, she's friendly to new people while i'm not , she has quite good voice, while I prefer to sweep the floor than singing...she's very careful while I'm clumsy... (that's why, everytime we go somewhere, she offers herself to keep the parking ticket, coz I always lost it..), Other difference between me and her; she's very religious, while i'm not…. really (hehe).. – lha kok kayaknya gue yang jelek-jeleknya mulu yah?-
Tapi apa yang gue rasain selama temenan ‘ma dia, gue dan dia bener-bener ngehargain pendapat, keputusan, pemikiran masing-masing, mungkin ada yang gak gue setuju dari dia, tapi gue gak pernah ikut campur ‘ma masalahnya dia, gue cuman ngasih dia pandangan dan pendapat gue.. that’s it.. the rest, I’ll let her decide… dan gitu juga sebaliknya, kadang2 dia gak setuju dengan ke over gila and nekatannya gue, tapi dia gak pernah bilang,”jangan!”, she never tells me what to do… ;).. Obrigado Barak,ya.. Nyet *bow* hehehehe..

Friends : who never laugh at your imaginations…
Yeah, I’m such a daydreamer… kadang-kadang gue suka berkhayal tentang banyak hal, kehidupan masa depan gue, atau mungkin berandai-andai tentang kehidupan masa kini gue, atau malah, gue suka bikin cerita-cerita imajinasi, and my made-up stories are always absurd. Ada dua temen yang selalu gue certain tentang fantasi.. eh, khayalan gue.. (knapa klo nyebut fantasi kesannya miring ye?hihi atau gue aja?)… Irini dan Ria, dua orang ini sama-sama daydreamer… :) itu sebabnya kenapa gue cocok klo mulai bikin made-up stories, soalnya dengan mereka cerita-cerita rekaan itu bakal berkembang dengan ‘liar’nya (aww!), dan kadang2 at the end of the conversation, kita suka bilang, “WOW.. kita bener2 tukang mimpi!”Irini and Ria, who never think that I’m such a weirdo! Thanks!

Friends : who forgive and forget
On the early years in campus I got a date, a very nice guy… too bad our relationship lasted less than 3 months, because, yeah… I misdefined the feeling I had for him… may be I’ve hurt him badly, because I insisted to break up, and walked away just like that. Setelah jadian 'ma dia, gue baru nyadar, klow tnyata, gue gak siap untuk 'share' kehidupan gue dengan dia... yeah,y'know spend time together a lot.... sedangkan saat itu, gue masih seneng ksana-kmari....You know what he does until now? Perlakuan dia ke gue gak berubah, masih seperti dulu-dulu sejak sebelum jadian, pas jadian.. dan dia selalu siap ngebantu gue dalam hal apapun… sesibuk apapun dia, dia selalu nyempetin waktunya buat gue.
Sergeant Lambok… hey! You’re still special! Hope all the best for you, and thanks for not hating me…

Friends : who never hesitate to have fun and go crazy with you, but in the other time, they can be a great discussion partner..
Hell, yeah.. I’m talking about Uni! Heheheh.. she’s my bad influence, hehe… and may be I’m her bad influence too….so, we influence each other to be criminals!
Dia udah mencekoki gue dengan PC game-PC game itu.. (Uniiii……. Can’t stop playing neh!), dan baru aja, gue berhasil menyetani dia untuk addict dengan blog! Anyway… gue gak ngerti, blakangan ini, kok ya’o… gue ‘ma dia suka ngerasa suntuk bareng, bete bareng, bosen bareng, nah klow udah gitu, we can do anything stupid together, atau malah jadi devil yang ngerencanain suatu kejailan (yang juga tolol,sbenernya sih! – dun forget our scenario, Un!).. tapi disisi lain, gue ‘ma dia kadang2 suka jadi kebawa seurieus dalam ngediskusiin beberapa hal dan fenomena-fenomena dalam kehidupan (shaelah)…. Hehehe… dan klo udah gitu, sumptime, kita ngomongnya suka jadi jero, dan rada berfilsafat, sampe end-upnya gue ‘ma dia terdiam dan masing-masing bilang, “yuck… menjijikan sekali kita!”Unayz, tararengkyu! *bow*

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….Hmmm.. may be I don’t spend time a lot with you all guys, like we used to do…. lot of things happen to me… and it pushed myself to change…..yeah, I feel it… I change a lot. May be I turn in to someone that you don’t like…. May be I’ve hurt you or neglect you…, may be I never contact you, may be….
But for me you all are still the same you….
You all are my wings
When I can not fly
You’re my feet
When I’m too tired to walk
You’re my sunshine
When I feel my days are getting dark

Thank you
For grabbing my hands when I almost felt down
Thank you
For your supports when I felt like I’ve lost my energy
But most of all..
I just thank you for being there!
Guys, you’re special to me!


Anyway, so what is friend for you?