Hehee.. this one is gonna be the longest entry, di rapel soalnya... ;)

12 September 2002

Hari Kamis, setelah sekian lama gak nyentuh dunia percetingan, akhirnya.. gue pake messenger juga. Gara-garanya my smart bro called and told me that there were an online reunion. It's good to see them again.. kangen berat gue.
Selain ceting dengan mereka, gue juga chat dengan beberapa temen (deu, baru brasa deh, sibuk ngereply, ceile.... sampe suka salah-salah reply..maabkan!) Tapi dari ceting kmaren, gue ngedapetin hal-hal yang akan disebutkan dalam point-point berikut ini (shahelah.... gaya banget, brasa nulis laporan!):

1. Whatta small world we have
ternyata, the world is simply as wide as kelor leaf.. (aih, apaan sih!) gimana enggak... orang-orang yang gue kenal, ternyata temennya temen gue, atau saudaranya temen gue, atau malah... ternyata... adik kelas gue... Seperti, enda, yang ternyata kakak kelas gue (tapi beda jurusan), juga temen satu SMPnya kakak kelas gue (satu studio), eh kmaren pas ngobrol.. ternyata dia jugaaa...kenal ma temen seangkatan gue...ih! trus erly, yang ternyata temen seangkatannya mantan gue di MTI-UI, trus ada marino, yang ternyata sepupuan ma adik angkatan gue... eh, malah pernah gue, pas jaman jamannya IRC, dengan tololnya chatting sama adik kelas gue, tapi gak nyadar...Hayyah.. dunia sempit bener.... belum lagi klo gue menjelajah weblognya orang-orang. link-linknya itu-itu mulu.... :D

2. I have to keep on writing
Belakangan ini gue ngerasa ngalamin penurunan kemampuan nulis gue, banyak kosa kata yang ilang dari otak gue...dah lama gak nulis bebas,sih.. kebiasaan nulis paper... udah gitu kemampuan bahasa inggris gue jadi 'kasiaaan deh loe,Ke!' soalnya jarang latihan...
Trus, gue akhirnya chat ama temen gue, yang ternyata.. adalah fans tulisan-tulisan gue (aih,gak nyangka.. jadi terharu..), dan dia menyemangatiku untuk tetap nulis, both fiction and non fiction.. tapi dia nggak ngedukung gue untuk nulis puisi, karena kata dia puisi2 gue deddy dores sekali (sialan lu!).. malah dia nyuruh gue untuk nyoba bikin novel.. hayyah... novel? kan habit gue klo nulis
kepanjangan suka mati ide.. jadi di folder kompie gue, banyak banget unfinished stories..
Trus, terakhir sebelum dia pergi bilang,"Dee aja bisa..." Lha.. kok Dee, sih? dibandingin 'ma dia? minder gue! trus diralat sama dia,"Ayu utami aja bisa.." Lha? trus diralat, dan tiap gue protes, diralat lagi dengan pengarang2 lain, Fira Basuki,NH.Dhini, sampe Khairil anwar, Lho? Yeee... blakangan gue baru nyadar klo dia ternyata... ngantuk, jadi nglantur! (hmm..soal gue bikin novel itu, serius dari dalem hati atau loe ngelantur juga nih?) But anyway, thanks for the encouragement. I'll keep on writing... at least in this blog... *padahal tadinya saking bosennya nulis, ini blog mo gue tutup aja!*

3.Nobody can't help you get out of your problems except yourself
Hmm.. it's true, I was wrong to think that I can be someone's angel, to help him/her out of his/her problems... I donno, I don't like to see people around me stuck in her/his problems, and I, who know it, just remain silent.. All I wanna do is just grab his/her hands
and pull him/her out.. But.. uhm, it wont work at all, if the person doesn't give his/her hands..
Sometime, I can't accept the hesitation... I always think, "Why? I care about you, and I don't want to see you like this.." But, uhm... I can't push both myself and the person whom I want to help to solve things out...IF HE/SHE doesn't want it..
it means, sometime I have to try to accept the fact, that my friend is in deep shit.. and uhm, let him/her be.... until he/she asks me to help.

4. it's good to see you both here with me
Saking asiknya chating, gue lupita klo hrus jemput 'Bang' Wira and Tae Gyun di stasiun... MAAB! akhirnya gue (bareng Mima and yuni) jemput mereka telat setengah jam... DESCULPA,Brothers! Maaaab bangedh!
Bgitu ketemu, aish.. gue baru nyadar klu gue kangen banget ma mreka..., udah deh, kita jadi ngobrol-ngobrol, ketawa-ketawa sampe bloon.. dan semuanya itu dilakuin sambil bdiri..jadi kita sejam-an sendiri ngobrol di stasiun.. bego gak seh?
Yang ngeberhentiin kita ngobrol bego gitu, cuman rasa laper, akhirnya kita mutusin untuk balik ke rumah Yuni, and makan malam disana.they will stay there until Saturday evening.
Diperjalanan ke rumah yuni, bang Wira... (yang akhirnya gue baru tau klo dia jauh lebih muda dari gue..huh, tampangnya tuir sih...) ngeluarin beberapa barang.... huaaaa... gue histeris abis ngeliatnya, stiker hapara violensia agora (hentikan kekerasan sekarang juga)! Duh, gue udah mupeng berat sama tu stiker sejak ptama kali gue liat tu stiker di civpol (kantor polisi)..
ma acih yah! Trus ada stiker dari kak Nivio, trus ada surat dari haba... yang bilang dia bakal ke bandung oktober.. hopefully she comes on 26th october, pas Yuni and mima wisuda...soalnya gue bingung dua-duanya wisuda, jam sama, hari sama, tapi kampus beda, dan dua-duanya maksa gue dtg! Klo ada Haba, kan bisa bagi tugas.... tapi, yang bikin gue feeling blue adalahhh..
surat dari murid-murid gue, plus gambar-gambar mereka... AISH! LABARIK, I miss you all! Sampe berkaca-kaca nerimanya, dan dihina-hina cengeng sama yang lain.. ya maab.. i'm such a soft and melancholy person.... weks!

13 September 2002

confusing konglish
jalan-jalan bareng Wira, Tae Kyum, Mima en Yuni... Haa.. akhirnya gue bisa denger Konglish lagi, because TK speaks with Konglish! Kongish is speaking english with Korean dialect... suer, jelek banget kedengerannya hehe.. buat yang baru ptama kali denger, kali bingung dan bertanya-tanya,"ni orang pake bahasa apaan sih?" hehe.. Iya soalnya mereka selain pronounciationnya jelek, juga suka nambahin bunyi-bunyi gak perlu untuk suatu kata, seperti if jadi Ifu.... trus off course jadi offcoursje, english jadi englishi atau malah ngurangin bunyi yang seharusnya ada.. seperti woman jadi oman... :D
Hmm, trus kmaren.. selama hang out bareng, kita jadi nyiptain bahasa kita sendiri korea-inggris-indonesia,plus beberapa body language.. mixed! dan lucunya, komunikasi lancar.. kita smmua ngerti...wah, emang bener-bener.. we communicate with minds and hearts, seperti kejadian di camp kemaren.. (shaelah!). hmm.. cuma klamaan bareng mereka, berdampak buruk juga, gue suka kebawa-bawa, make sound expression, atau dialek korea... pokoknya, ngancurin bahasa inggris gue (yang emang pas-pasan juga!) banget!
Ngomong2 soal bahasa, ada kejadian konyol waktu camp kmaren, suatu saat, pas semua partisipan ngumpul, ada acara talent show, yah, semacam nunjukin bakat masing-masing lah... trus ada satu kelompok partisipan Korea, ngebentuk vokal grup... pas mereka nyanyi, wah suaranya bagus, cuman gue gak ngerti lagunya, yah mungkin lagu Korea, gitu gue pikir.... eh abis mereka selesai nyanyi, tau-tau ada temen Korea lainnya nanya ,"Is that indonesian song?" Lho,kok? trus gue jawab,"no.. that's not indonesian..I thought it was Korean..." kita bedua bingung... trus kita nanya sama temen kita yang dari timor.. eh kata temen kita juga, mereka gak make bahasa tetun atau fataluku (bahasa mayoritas orang Timor).. dan pas kita tanyain ke yang nyanyi.. mereka ngomel.. "Offcoursje.. we sing englishi.." heheh...

my spiritual teacher and wira's
Remember Mirma? one of two best friends I thought I lost... well, actually it's only miscommunication that's all, now we hang out together again.. I don't know why, I feel relieved to 'have' her back in my life... and I don't wanna loose her or feel like I loose her... don't give me wrong,but, she is one of best people in my life.
May be some people ask 'why?' it's hard to explain... coz we both different... she loves to make simple things complicated, while I always simplify complicated things (hehe), she's dependent while I love to do things myself, she's friendly to new people while i'm not (hihi), she has great voice, while I prefer to sweep the floor than singing...she's very careful while I'm clumsy... (that's why, everytime
we go somewhere, she always keeps the parking ticket, coz I always lost it..),
Other difference between me and her; she's very religious, while i'm not really (hehe).. but she's not fanatic, yes she reads bible often, she goes to church etc etc, but she's a kind of person who can accept other opinions, habits...with her, I can be myself, without pretention... she won't tell me to do what bible says to... (which sometime makes me sick)..
And I can do million things with her, from talking about silly stuffs, acting as crazy as we want to, calling each other "bego!" or "monyet!"... but on the other hand, I can also discuss serious things, like politics, or... religion.....
I must admit, I learn a lot from her.. she's still young, but she knows already what the substance of her life, what she wants to be and to do... she always use her life for useful things...(ha, while I often spend my time with not so useful things..that's another differences)
She's kinda my spiritual teacher... But, she also says that she learns many things from me too.. hmm.. I guess we influence each other... she's my good influence, while I'm her bad influence.. heheheh...
Anyway, talking about spiritual teacher, when I talked with Wira, he said that he also has this kind of relationship...and guess with whom? yepp.. with my smart brother, Wira said that my smart brother is the best guy he ever known...and Wira learns many things a lot from him, like me learning a lot from Mirma....Gosh, It makes me adore him more and more everyday.....

14 September 2002

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,Brother Wira!
Happy birthday to you.. you were born in the zoo,
with the lion and the tigers, and the monkeys like you..
suer itu bener-bener lagu met ultah jaman lebaran kadal... heheh.. but Me, Mima and Yuni sang it to Wira... berapa taun lo? 20? yang bener?kok tampang lo... ehm... tuir?*plak, dan gue pun dilemparin panci*
Tae gyun bener-bener hepi banget kita nyanyi gitu ke Wira..., yah dia emang seneng, klo Wira dicela.... sebaliknya, klo Tae gyun yang dicela, Wira ketawa puasss banget.....Gak tau knapa tu anak dua bawaannya berantem, cela-celaan tapi kemana-mana bareng.. binun!
Trus Wira, tnyata centil jugaws, dia pengen ngewarnain rambut... jadi auburn geeto, ya udah gue bantuin ngewarnain, di asisteni oleh yuni... tapi gak tau knapa, tau-tau Tae gyun bilang, "Let me do it for you, Wira!" weis.. tumben.. kok mau gitu berbaik hati ma Wira. Eh taunyah...itu alesan dia doang buat nyiksa Wira, yang kepalanya ditoyor-toyor, dikeplak-keplakin... malah untuk nyuruh Wira ngedongak aja, dia narik rambut ubun-ubun Wira gue ma Yuni ngomel," hey, don't be rude! it's not polite..." tau gak alasannya apa? dia bilang dia gak tau bahasa Inggrisnya ngedongak tuh apa...
Dan dia ngejelasin dengan Konglish dan body languagenya, "Okke, Yuni.. I do inyi (maksudnya ini).." sambil narik rambut Wira sampe Wira ngedongak (he always says 'ini' with 'inyi')..."becausje I don't know inyi.." trus narik rambut Wira lagi..."in englishi..that's why, eberytime I want Wira to do Inyi.." narik rambut Wira, "I just pull his hair like, inyi.." tarik rambut Wira lagi. Dan Wira pun ngamuk2...
Trus ternyata hasil ngewarnain rambutnya gak begitu bagus, so I said to Wira," the color is not really good, Wir!" dan Tae Gyun nyaut.." not only the hair colour, but also his face is not good.." aish.. cela-celaan aluta kontinua

tangkuban perahu lagi aktif? HUAA?
Mima ngliat berita di koran, kalo ternyata tangkuban perahu lagi aktif, dan gak boleh dikunjungi karena berbahaya, apalagi klo sampe turun ke kawahnya...banyak hewan-hewan hutan yang mati gara-gara gasnya beracun... Huaaaaaa? kemaren kan kita kesana? Yuni ma Tae Gyun malah turun ke kawahnya.. aduh....! kita-kita yang denger cerita itu, ngomong satu kalimat bareng,"Thanks God!"

selamat jalan brothers! sarang he! casimeo!
Mereka pulang jam 7.00 WIB naik Turangga to Surabaya, dan bakal lanjut langsung ke Bali..., ternyata Tae Gyun brangkatnya dari Denpasar, bukan dari Jakarta.. yah, i'm gonna miss you, both.. brothers! Sarang He..it's good to meet and know you both!Hmm.. tinggal nungguin my smart brotherku.. jadi gak seh. loe kesini?*sigh*

15 September 2002

Family time!
This sunday.....is just like the other sundays, goin to church and FAMILY TIME!!! some people might say it's a boring routinity, but for me and my parents it's not.... because from monday to saturday, mum keeps saying that I wasn't her daughter, coz I go out early in the morning and go back near bed time... And when I arrive she always says, "uh,I almost forget your face.." or "uh, do I have a daughter?who are you" she's only joking... but from her eyes, I know she doesn't like me come late... she always says,"I trust you, but I trust none out there, they could intend to do bad things to you.. so be careful, and if you can,please come home earlier.."
So, sunday is a time where I can be my parents' daughter... somehow someway, i really enjoy SUnday... and I often say NO when my friends ask me to go out with them on Sunday (xcept for special case..)...
Anyway, I can't stop thinking, why some people don't like being together with their family... they prefer to be among their peers.. hmm. may be when they are with the friends...they feel like I feel when I'm with my family... I feel like I'm home, I'm in my nest, where I can love and be loved, listen and be listened, care and be cared ...Aish, I love my family too much!